A Worshippers' Heart

Forward

2009-02-14T00:27:00.002+08:00

lalala!

Gosh. fine, i do agree with a certain person its been a little long since my last post. but not that bad right! oh man. i just checked. it HAS been long haha. ok i shall fill myself in.

Orientation was great in YJ! i never expected to have so much fun. and..."fun". one thing is i shall not look forward for couple's dance ever. gosh. so embarrassing. anyway, 119 rules. thats an understatement. haha. i never learnt so many cheers in 5 days ever in my life! oh goodness. it still ring in my head. I'm really beginning to like my class. i must say as of now, i have not fully shown who i am yet i guess. perhaps i still need time to adjust and get used to a new environment, although i must say its still taking longer than usual. oh well. i shall adjust.

my heart sadly still lies with SA at the moment. i'm slowly letting go though. bit by bit, and i feel a sense of relief actually. i've realised i've been holding on to some very dear things...and people, that are the very things that God wants me to release. I guess my blood does run with one of St.Andrew's. So...gosh. i neve thought it would be this difficult, but with God, all things are possible (:

if there's one thing this new school has that i am totally not going to follow, its (in summary), no sharing of faith to anyone in the school. i.e no evangelising and testifying :( and that is actually a school rule! how irritating. thats one rule i am going to constantly break, no matter how much trouble i get into. i aspire to break this rule again and again, as many times as needed to get someone saved, if thats the price i have to pay. but its going to be sooo worth it. to heck with this rule. nothing is going to stop me from letting the world know of a Saviour. cause "What the world will never take, the world will never take it away!" yup!

I've got interesting teachers. haha. very interesting. thats about as much as i can say. i'm trying to accept one of them i particular. haha. oh well. but my classmates are one of a kind. i mean, each and everyone of them has so distinct characteristics and personalities, and its really quite fun and funny to see how we all bond together. i'm starting to love it. like seriously. i've met a few believers. a few is enough for God to move (: if only they are willing to rise up. lol.

Abraham said something today. in particular to Saints Aflame, he said: "The worshippers have all continued in the SA family. while the leaders have all been sent out to a new harvest field!"Gosh how i laughed...but as i reflect back, i began to see a lot of significance in his statement. Indeed, the leaders of the christian community of the school, both staff and students (like myself and Chee), have really all been sent out after completion of our time in SA. Like Rev Titus, Mrs Sarah Choo, Ms Wendy Yong, Pastor Ben, Mr Lawrence Koh, Clarence, Jerrold Quek, Darren Lee....gosh i can name so much more. but indeed, these very few mentioned ppl have all been send to a different place...and each and every single one of them has impacted lives in the different fields...and when i mean impact, i really mean impact. and whats scary is that its solo. like its just...one of them. impacting the WHOLE field. I am really amazed at how God used them and how they avail themselves for God to move.

So today...i see my prescence in YJ as a calling...and a new harvest field. Perhaps God knows that I'm ready to continue this legacy of going into a new harvest field...lol. so much for being part of the christian leaders community in SA. but...although i don't feel ready...perhaps i am but not...availing myself. so...perhaps i should just give it ago and see how it works. if there's one thing i want to leave YJ with to take back...is the rule that bans religious activities. I aspire for it to be gone totally. seriously. haha. thats a big dream but....hey no harm working towards it! So while the rest of the ppl i know remain together in the family, the few chosen ones, haha, like me and Chee have been called to a new harvest field...to be set apart, indepandant and ready to do God's will. (: thats hopefully how i see myself throughout my time in YJ....or perhaps better things.

Love.Me.Now event was today! Gosh. so many salvations. met my closest bunch of friends when i was in sec school for lunch prior to the practice. it was a great time of catching up. and yeah....the event;s worship team rocks like totally, not because i'm inside. haha. but because God really really moved and we facilitated His movement well. haha. i'm sooo uber happy and high, haha.

ok i shall continue to upload Stephen's birthday splash into my facebook.

gosh that statement is so stuck in my head: "while the LEADERS have all been sent out to a NEW harvest field" i shall so claim it. God being my helper.

First Steps

2009-02-02T18:11:00.002+08:00

haha. thats the best expression i can use to describe myself today.

First day in YJC. haha. quite cool! Orientation first day is...not bad haha. my OG was rather quite though. lol. not surprising. i shall unleash my lame side when i get to know them better...and when i'm more properly attired. white pants is bad enough...together with black leather shoes, its THE worst playtime attire. EVER. time to look for pants. haha

but today is a day to remember, and i believe by faith it WILL get better. Auditions wasn't super fantastic, but it was pleasant and i enjoyed myself. I would say it was a good one. yeah...come to think about it, it couldn't have gone any better. the auditioners asked personal questions that was so relevant and spot-on to the type of personal questions anyone could get, so haha. really cool.

Now for the miracle. Gosh. First day of school and i had 5 ppl praying for me. all was well till 12.15pm where i requested to leave for 2pm auditions. And my first setback was that security guard who insisted i grab a leave form. then came the VP. oh gosh. First day of school and i believe i've just got myself blacklisted as "the boy who wanted to go SA through GE...badly". lol. he did not approve of my leave! oh gosh. its amazing how nice and smily and calm i was even though i had just been rejected. and from this, prayer works wonders. had to go through so many personnel it seems its like a major case for me. My OGL is the nicest i've seen, never failing to keep a look out for higher authorities to approve of my leave and kept speaking up for me countless of times. i'm touched and lost for words. she is really really understanding.

So in the end, when all seemed dark and cloudy, a little light came through. my CT got the VP's approval! oh gosh. it was like a huge miracle really. You could never imagine the weird thoughts of not turning up for auditions and losing a place in the JC...but God was faithful. He always have been. Even the taxi driver that practically rushed me to school was so uber nice...i asked him to keep the (40cents) change. lol. at least i offered leh.

then good faithful Abraham Chee Rui Zhi was there waiting for me with Wonderful, my classical guitar. and he even bought sushi for me thinking that i was hungry! oh gosh. i'm so so touched. i practiced and he commented and saw me all the way from arriving at SAJC to coming home. What a great brother-in-Chris i have!

But this whole incident has made me realised something: if God is for me, who can be against me? he turned a seemingly helpless situation around and just...delivered me from the JC. lol. yeah, delivered. gosh. I've learnt and i know from this that i certainly must not give up. He send a Civics Tutor, an OGL, a taxi driver, nice auditioners and good faithful Abraham to support me in different ways. This just shows that God is defintely for me, and because God has taken care of me and answered my prayers, i know that an even bigger miracle will take place.

I've got a story:

"A boy was out in a field on night. it wasn't a scenic place, but there were a couple of bright lights around him. He was troubled by a certain situation, so he looked up into the dark sky and told God: if i am able to see 3 stars, just 3 stars, i would take it as a sign that God is for him. He gazed into the night sky. Everything was just nice, from the cool breeze to the stillness of the night, but not a star was in sight. He closed his eyes for a few seconds and reopened them, hoping to see starts amidst all the lights in the area. Still no stars. He told God the same thing and in fact reduced it to 1 star, but sadly not a single star was in sight. As he looked up into the sky once more, he was disappointed that God did not answer his prayers. But then a little thought, almost like a small quiet voice saying:

you don't need see the stars to know it is there. you simply have to know it is there... and believe it"

same thing i guess. i've learnt i don't always have to immediately see God's works or ask for a sign of confirmation. I just have to know that God is there, and simply believe it. Besides, the people that were sent to help me out today is already a sign of God's favours.

Ted doesn't always need to see. He just needs to believe his ever-faithful God. Cause indeed, God will make a way where there seem to be no ways.

I shall now believe and wait...in prayer and faith.

To Yishun or....BUST

2009-01-30T21:14:00.002+08:00

RAH.

rights. so we have arrived at that oh so nice day of the posting results. and ted got a pretty good option: Yishun JC. yup. he spelled it out. Although i must say he did some strategic planning. VERY strategic. As much as he looks forward to go to a JC...he has always and forever will have SA in his heart. Is it too late? No. There is still much to hope and pray for. Ted will not give up. Even so, he is blessed. Very very blessed, to have a JC. Though little is heard of..perhaps its time for a revival in Yishun? Hm....

Yishun or BUST. gosh. i really really pray its bust. oh God...if You can read this, please please please speak and reveal to Your child, the answer to one of the most long-awaited life changing questions: will he ever make it to SAJC?

....And here we go: Guitar Ensemble auditions. Mon,2pm. note to self: practice hard. its your last chance.

and its time to hope for and pray. whatever it is, God...You're the best (:

hm. i won't say i'm sad or disappointed...cause there is much to be celebraTED. theres much to rejoice. there's much...

...to be thankful for.

Amen.

Beyond fifteen: The Next Phase

2009-01-15T00:20:00.003+08:00

miracles do happen.

15 is something that i would never have expected to get. in fact, it way exceeds my expectations. considering writing discursively when expected to make a stand for english compo, this is certainly a miracle. these whole O level journey, i've relearnt: God is a faithful God!

gosh. i'm really excited. however, i do see before yet another mountain: the postings. gosh. 2 points short to the JC i want is just...not a very nice feeling. well there are many ways to get in though. praying that i'll get through JAE like everyone else. even so, appealing is NOT a bad idea, just that its the last line. Either I make it or....i'll make it (: by faith (LOTS AND LOTS of faith) lol.

So i planned my posting quite strategically, although i can't say i'm happy with the 1st JC that i surely can get it. but oh well. STRATEGIC is the word heehee.

well, till that day comes, i shall press on, pray, believe and just wait on God! Yup. thats what i should have done anyway. haha.

Gosh. my hols are coming to an end soon :( but i've really made the most out of it. I've been going to sooo many events with sooo many people and i've gone out soooo much i nearly couldn't go out already haha. its like i have to apply leave get out of my house. gosh.

Wednesdays will never be the same for me again...for this month at least! i've found a parent volunteer group who prays for St.Andrew's FAITHFULLY for 7 whole years. EVERY WEDNESDAY without fail, at CHS. from 7.45am to 9.45am. gosh. i'm just in total awe and amazed at their perseverence and commitment and unity in meeting every wednesday....till today i'm just awestruck, literally. for 10 years of my life in the village and i have NO idea this was happening. gosh. this is some late awakening. but oh well.

Have been going with Abraham every Wednesday morning to like join them, and the first time i was already made to play guitar. lol. how interesting God works when you just avail yourself haha. its a really fun group, i wish i can spend every wednesday mornings there! i'm just touched by every parent's love for the school. its simply amazing. haha.

Well, i shall continue to have fun! A hurricane hit my room so i need to do the...repair and life-rescue work. and if abraham chee sees this i want to know whats a pentatonic scale, and how to use them in blues. i shall inspire myself to learn a bit of jazz while i'm free. heh. time to enter the world of flats and sharps *since i hate it so much anyway*

"And i won't worry about 2mr, i'm trusting in what You say. TODAY is THE day!"

-rejoicing and being glad in Jesus!

THE Day Approaches

2009-01-10T02:25:00.003+08:00

Oh hallelujah.

12 Jan 2009 will be a day to remember. Especially for those born between 1991-1993. The signal to prepare came in the form of a local television channel, called Channel News Asia. after all, it wasn't called a NEWS channel for nothing. But that news was....neither good nor bad, but just...a signal to prepare.

Gosh. The worries and anxieties that leads up to THE day. Its killing me. haha. although i;ve prayed numerous times, my spirit is at peace, thankfully. thr physical part of me is just more...anxious then worried. lol. i guess thats me, wanting to know the truth nownownow. haha. i;ve realise the only side-effect from all these....waiting is the anxiety to know the truth itself. other than that, there really is a lot of needless stress and hauntings go around lately. lol.

Then again, i see and have heard all the expectations and the "I look 4ward to hearing good results!" kind of answer. One after another. Gosh. I wonder what if i didn't have God. i might have just broke down or something. However, I can now claim these very expectations and goals that were set upon me, because i see it as an encouragement and signs of victory. it really changed the way i look at THE day. There is simply NO use of worrying and feeling pressured when you can do nothing about it.

So the only way is too look forward, with great expectations, to THE day...and SMILE! These whole O level series is a journey in itself. B3 is one grade Theodore Koh would have never been able to reach in his entire life, it not for God's grace and faithfulness. What better (and right) action to take then to place my trust in the One who can turn hopeless situations around?

Well, thats my reflections. I shall press on and hit the finish line, knowing God has never left me and never will. God has not given up on me, and therefore i shall not give up on myself. I've come this far, and I shall not go fall back but continue to hit many more finish lines with a persevering heart and in godly victory!

Because...
"God will make a way, where they seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see. He will make a way for me
He will be my guide, hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way. He WILL make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness He'll lead me
Rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
and He will do something NEW TODAY"

....and AMEN.

Its because of YOU, I will carry on.

Beginnings

2009-01-06T00:06:00.002+08:00

OOO.

its 5 january already. and i still haven't done a proper post yet. haha.

well. life without school is rather...cool i guess.

been going out a lot, and doing lots of stuff i could have never have done while having O levels.

even now, i've got things to look forward for! and no, the results is NOT one of them lol. But i have faith i will get through this. Because God is a faithful God

I'm still on some project. which i really wonder why i began in the first place. as each day past, i feel like i'm wasting my time. RAH. gosh, what should i do? i've already done so much, i can't stop now. then again, it'll eventually be a piece of forgotten memory anyway. I don't know :(

It seems like on the other hand, i'm getting roped into problems which i can't say i would like to be in...is it time to break free already...along with everything else i'd worked so hard for? *sigh*

2009: A year of fruitfulness, breakthroughs, and miracles. I will NOT continue in last year's spirit, cause there's so much more i can do this year!

So, THEODORE KOH: GROW up! Its time to SOAR. and keep your eyes FIXED on the FINISH LINE. things happened, things come and things go, but the blessings of God will just keep getting better and better, so GET READY for it! Don't let the things of this world hinder you from the so much better things that God has installed for you: so BREAK FREE and get up and DANCE in His Love!

There. so much for a note to self. Got to start the year well, and can't let the things of the past dwell on me.

Here I GO!

Back

2008-12-12T22:53:00.003+08:00

Gosh! Its been sooooooo long since i last posted. haha. I need to rework some stuff here. this is a test post anyway, so tell myself blogger hasn't given up on me just yet, that is, if this gets posted.

Diliema

2008-09-13T22:35:00.004+08:00

greats.

O level is coming...argh! Its really scary. Sometimes i really wish i had taken formal music training seriously and perhaps be a grade 8 guitarist at sec3 and enter SAJC through DSA. oh well. Really glad for all whose DSA had been approved. haha.

Hm, Its hard. I realise i can't go by anyway way except the though the front door, like everybody else. I've kinda realise...like yeah, really realise that i'm deep trouble. Am really glad many peopl have been saying I can get <10>

I really giving this a lot of though. Do i REALLY have to go to SAJC? I mean, does God have a purpose for me there? I personally do want to go but...i realise its for the wrong reason. I shouldn't go there because of , but its something I will have to pray about. So myGOSH, i hate the pressure of going to SAJC. I think i'm free to explore other options, only if thats what God wants me to.

Note to self: Its God plan for me, not mine. Therefore, work to get <10points,>

hm. I'm beginning to feel sad....i'm going to miss 4S1. my dear friends in SA. *sigh* i really really do treasure them alot...every single one of them. yeah. the thought of my graduation is just...sad. i guess. but life must go on.

what a weird state i'm in now. I figure i should have always been...and now am going RELY ON GOD. something i should have done a long time ago. Still, as always, i need to play my part in studying. SO studying is what i must do (urgh....). Since its something I have to do before God can work through me, then I shall do

...for His Name's sake.　

~Lord I really need Your guidance...~

Teacher's Day 2008

2008-08-29T13:21:00.002+08:00

Concert: The Main Event

Boy i'm glad its over. never before did i become so anxious for SFC's item. Yup, we presented Wo Xiang Fei by ignite. WA. i tell you. it was scary...to imagine that you're first up and have NO sound going to the mains. SCARY. spiritual warfare. the wire just had to not work that day. So how?

That couldn't stop God from providing another wire (sry COR...hehs..) it went musically well i guess...no...i believe! Everybody did great. Thanks Abraham, Wilson, Matthew, Joshua, Moses Shawn and Jon for making this event a HUGE success! at least for us that is haha.

woots. hols are here.

boo....have to study...

Blessed Teacher's Day!!!

The Anger Statement

2008-08-24T04:26:00.003+08:00

LOL

Step 1: Do something really horrible till he gets emo-ed and sad-faced. Reminder: something HORRIBLE. He has high threshold for it.

Step 2: Make sure he is at the brink of shouting some bad word at you (which he will not!)

Step 3: At that instant, you must genuinely (without any hint of being funny/joking) look him in the eye and say "Sorry". using ENCOURAGING WORDS might earn you extra points.

Step 4: Repeat steps 1-3 if you don't believe.

Nah....i'm not angry. just that i realise this is actually how i work. and NO, do not try it out purposely. if ever caught in this situation just go to step 3. it should work, depends how genuine you are (how good an actor you r).

Its weird. why can't i hold anger and grudges? everytime i want to get angry with somebody....i just can't. figures. the other person gets of scott-free so easily. on the other hand, i;m glad i can't hold it for more than hour. it helps emotionally. haha.

well. back to sleep.

Happy Birthday Singapore!

2008-08-08T20:28:00.002+08:00

*sings* happy birthday 2u....

oh wells. must ALWAYS go for prayer meetings. they are fun and encounterful. heh.

sighs. so much for celebration. O lvl coming loh.... geez. In sec1, i use to think this day would never come. one really sad thing is that....friends. as much as i want to like spend more time time with every one of them....i can't. it really hurts to build friendships and then find out you might just lose it all one day. i hope i can keep in touch with as many of them. still...i worry that it won't be the same as before.. sobs....

"its not for us to get angry...." was what i was told when someone else was speaking against my faith. it hurts. it really hurts....especially when they don't know who they're speaking against. i have EVERY right to get angry, but vengence is not mine ultimately. that i know.

"God, please forgive ******* for the thing he said. by your grace and unconditional love, may he come to know you. and may i be able to be firm and stand up for what is right in Your sight and not mine."

Mr Harry Tan has passed away. and oh dear...of all days. but really glad for the fact he shifted house (: am sure he'll like it there. hope he'll have a good time up there too.

and. i shall stop my rambling. ND celebrations were....quite cool. thanks to DA who made me learn a game in 5 mins. my thousand apologies to 6-4 who only got 5 mins to play they game. heehee. i'll....give you each a sweet! (maybe....not)

and. yups.

On the 22nd of July

2008-07-25T22:22:00.002+08:00

heh

well. firstly i want to list down and thank the following people who have made the effort (unlike me) to remember my Bdae!

God (who NEVER sleeps NOR forgets)

Ian (Thanks for the present!!! Promise to make Jesusful use of it)

Abraham (Thanks for the dinner!)

4S1: Haoming, Eng Zheng, Keith, Matthew, Wilson, Helios and yah lah. basically everybody

Jasper & Isaac & Raymond (For the really cute bear and card!)

Mrs Ang (for the nonsense yellow tapes)

Mdm Soh (for the sweets)

KY (for...er...nvm)

My Board Members

Adler

Delise

Bryan

Nathan

Huirou

Keith

My Cell (for the...er....present. DON'T POST ANY PICS I WARN U. grrr)

The Worship Team (For the uber-fanastic "Happy Birthday" remix. lol)

Clarence & Jerrold (really. thank you guys..)

Melanie

Moses Wong (who's Bdae is like 23!!!)

Kelvin

Chubby

Cassendra, Aaron, Moses

Abraham's Mum and Dad

Sherman & Desmond (for the wishes starting 3 days in adv!)

Yong Le, Seran

Noah

Godma & Godpa

Jo Teo

Hannah Tan, Lee, Heng

Kevin Teo

Gloria

K.Sarra

Zongren....

and so much more i missed out. but. THANKS!!!!!

Well. it all started on that fateful saturday. where i was seriosuly clueless about the well-planned surprise by my cell. yup. i hate no clue, although Claire and Sarah were acting....funny.

Thanks for the cake! and thanks..er...for the present? i had to wear a yellow *******!!!! GRRRRrRR. oh well. i had a good laugh anyway. NO PHOTOS ON LINE PLS. its embarrassing! sheesh! But yeah. its was really nice of them. The worship team serving that day play like an spontaneous remix of Happy Birthday. it was so cool. thanks to Yyvette, Bryan, Josh, Uncle, Chester, PDa, Mikey. haha. THANKS!!!! to my awesome church ppl

and then came school day. where the 4ST jokers already started their wished on the 21 July. LOL. and my grandma's Bdae was on 21st! celebrated hers the previous day. had karoke and dinner. lol. i don't like to sing old chinese songs.

Ian was the first to give me a present. haha. so touched. then came the whole wave of smses. so NICE of all those ppl who spend **cents to message me. i hope i replied of them back hehs. Mrs Ang was SUPER LAME. she wrote 1 word on a stick pad and placed them on my arm. and then another....ONE BY ONE. ohmytian. she couldn't become any lamer. well. she could. got sweets from my chinese teacher too! thanks RAYMOND for spreading to the world. grr.

Had lunch with Eng Zheng, Haoming and Ray on the 21st at KFC. it was GOOD. we talked like nonsense for 2 plus whole hours! Had lunch at yoshinoya@kovan with Ian on 22nd. lol. had fun (: lotza fun. and then had dinner with Abraham! haha. Jack's Place was really nice. then folks came in and celebrated together. whee. bought stuff too with my $130 ang pao from my parent's cell. haha.

Yup. thats about pretty much what happened. so yeah. i'm 16 and growing. i seriously need to grow taller. before i become a laughing stock that i already am. GRRR.

The 18th of July

2008-07-18T21:10:00.002+08:00

hrm.

I guess its ordinary day. As in...it was perhaps a good friday. adult cell just finished. wished mum could understand that there's a reason why i'm not very confident of playing: and thats people give WRONG KEY. grr. the music was perhaps terrible tonite. but i'm sure (for them at least being adults), off key doesn't really matter so. oh wells. i don't mind too. hm. veruy disturbing worship. LOL. sry God. hope the hearts are much more acceptable to you then the music.

Well. our chapel worship min is getting stable. Jon Phang played for the first for chapel. with Matt to cover the A.Guits, Jon to cover C.Keys, and Abraham worship leading....i think they're fine without me! haha. still....i do wish jerald, moses and shawn would rise up. i never asked for worship arranging skills and perfect pitching. just...open hearts.

22nd July doesn't seem like a very special day anymore. in fact....it just got worse. i have 2 physics papers due and 1 chem test on tues. oh wells. so much for the celebration. what do i want? ....world peace. seriously. at least in SA that is.

firstly to the prefects. must have been a bad Senior i guess. allowed too many people to be nice with me. and their overdoing it. one of these days, i might just blast one of them. and i promise, they will not like it. perhaps live to regret for having a senior prefect like me. but LOL! like i would that. anyway, i don't think i can blast for nuts....or can i? heh

then comes by dear Board Members. *sigh* if i really start things going, i'm gonna be on side of the...er...war. if i remain neutral, i'll probably get hurt one of these days. so? what to do?

and then comes my class.

and then the teachers....

and then ME.

and i have no idea what i just wrote! hm. this emo thing is contagious. better be careful.

rites. i think i've wrote a lot. so. there's that.

Oh My Tian!

2008-07-12T21:37:00.002+08:00

Yikes!

Rites. so i actually came back after all. well. i don't think i've changed much since my last post. its amazing i can still log in! thought they would have cancelled my account or smt. oh wells.

its not that i'm glad to be back. its just that i'm SOO bored. and hm. thought of visiting here again.

i've much (loads actually) to catch up if i were to be serious about posting again. its been...really long. so many things happened! haha. lots to be filled in. guess it has to be done one at a time.

i do realise i have soo many photos! i seriosuly must cut down....before it becomes a hindrance in loading the page. oh well.

i've totally lost my formatibility...er. format. anyway. looks like i shall talk to myself. haha.

....now what should i do now? gosh.

i believe...

2007-10-25T19:19:00.000+08:00

Hmph.

Don't er...really feel like posting. guess its a roller coastery moment..again. when everything seemed fine and now its back to sqare one. i don't know. perhaps i'll post again.

There can be miracles, when I believe
Though hope is frail, its hard to fail
Who knows what miracles, HE can achieve
If I believe, somehow HE will
I'll know when i believe...

There can be miracles, if i believe...
and I do believe....

~needing one

Camp Rush 5.8

2007-09-07T10:16:00.000+08:00

September hols are here!!!! oh well, not for me. i spend 5.8 days in camp; back to back. bleh. it kinda...sux lor. anyway....some good did come out of it....which i must say i treasured.

oh before i continue:

Let It Out.mp3 is officially out! check it out in the psalms page!

BB Company Training Camp:
The annual CTC has arrived. honestly....it was so dreadful, it affected me quite a bit. the thought of it just made me really sulky and yeah, my attitude 2wards things changed. Camp was from Sat morning to mon noon. on friday nite, i just couldn't sleep. ah. it was terrible. but i did come to realize worrying was not gonna help. so, i do what i should have been doing in the 1st place. i prayed.

As the camp cont, God did answered my prayer and it wasn't an extremly tough camp after all. guess its my fault for putting my expectations to high and causing my mindset to be weak. gummy fetch me in the morning! glad to be finally sitting in the car. went sch, then campsite and immediately led worship there.

Yup, praise God. smt i looked forward too. leading worship. of course, how can a worship leader like me lead when i can't even have a proper attitude 2wards things? Well, i thank God for being so merciful. it went great...in fact i took that step of faith to invite everyone present to soak deeper in His prescence. like the last CTC, a song was repeated again after officer has shared....was it so coincidental for the sharing to be related to "purify me heart"? i don't think so. God is a GOOD orchestrator.

yup...so to summarize, i skipped camp for 4 hours to jam with the future *i hope* CCIS band. went okay la. then chiong back to camp...all went well to the jubilee marathon. got forced to do kayaking. bleh, of all things. but i think i did well! *pats self on back* and my squad of 5 won 2nd place!!! when other squads had 8! haha! OWNAGE.

then came talent nite where we put skits up. i think our squad did amazing well too! it was on moses...and of all people I had to be moses. haha! Moses, Singapore style was cool! all the super duper lame stuff we thot of haha. in the end however came in 2nd. such a comment was passed:

Ryan: "Wa lao! Jubilee race squad caleb win by 2 mins, then now win by 2 points!
Mr Robin Ang: "Too bad lor! you also 2 cm shorter than the rest!"
lol.

Prefects Induction Camp 0708 batch
Went home at 11.00pm on sunday night. I missed church!!!! ): oh well. super tired, i just dozed off the moment i reached bed. bleh.

woke up next morning at 0700. packed and went sch. bumped into principals. shoots.....
met the whole gang and went thru one more round of planning and finalizing. then relac for a while..went out to buy stuff. then it started! i was gonna do any teaching to the new prefects, so heh. i was the ultimate slacker. before they came, i took this really cool shot of the Ex-co. its really cool i think. after much persuasion, i also did one. ok here goes:

>>>Welfare Senior 0708.

lol. of all things. yeah...so thruout the camp it was really slack...i didn't get to do anything much. however i DID have 3 cases:
1) Person wanted to quite. result: quitted. couldn't be helped.
2) Sick fella. result: prayed for him. he went home. things he's ok now (:
3) Emotional breakdown person. result: praise God! he's better than before now (:

through this 3 cases...God really helped me out. since its my 1st day! and i have alr 3 cases. bleh
yeah! it was good in the end.

>>>The new bunch of prefects

>>>The new bunch of Ex-co members.

haha.

~Purify my heart. let it be as gold and precious silver
....i CHOOSE to be...HOLY.~

Let It Out!

2007-08-26T19:07:00.000+08:00

wow, been a long time since my last post. oh well, at least i'm back. LET IT OUT! Jo,Gerald and my new song! we're sending it in for the songwriting competetion! yay! went down to PL yesterday night with PDa and jas Choe for fine tuning. heh. went very well :) i'll upload the refined version of the demo. the version 2.3 raw is like...LOL.

Yeah! been busy with competitions lately! church has vision month coming, which explains the song and photo competition. (everybody participating say whoohoo!) had the refined recording today, along with combined jam. today was goood. although i went reached church later then usual, God was good! i prayed for all the traffic lights to be green coz i was really rushing for time. took a cab you see. heh. desperate times calls for desperate measures. nearly all were red, went we approached, however the moment the cab was about to stopm it turned green! besides 2 really close ones, ALL were turned to green the moment we slowed down! its just amazing at how God works. thank u God!

yup, served 2wice in a row already, jon tan couldn;t make it today and glad to fill in for him :) and yay! i've been doing a number of strumming solos lately! haha! thank God for that too.

oh speaking of photos, week before last was praying for the school special service, and this was
what i came in:

LOL. oh well. surprise. for those of you who don't know, i'm a prefect. SA's prefect uniform is different. its full white with black leather shoes. bleh! imagine RI's uniform, just that the shoes is black leather! argh! its so !(&@(&!!@ i decided to come in the STUDENT's uniform! heehee. ta-da. me in students uniform. a never-before and never-2B-done-again picture exclusive. heh. treasure the moment, it WON'T happen again. (or would it...? hm.)

and NO i'm not sending that in. haha. i plan to send this and a few more Mad said i could though:

haha. my cell ppl. bryan, mervyn and shiwah. care and connecting enough? LOL. oh well, i'll attempt to send in.

Opposition Debate @ Adam,PL rules! haha!

now we come to school. hm. very very busy too! theres ANOTHER song writing competition going on also. its crazy! i'm handling 2 ppls one, and its tiring. now i have to be the point person. urgh! now i prob know how jas feels. *sigh* last week alr...have to hand by this fri! so scary! somemore got teacher's day rehearsal song to prac! and got #&!^$#*! BB camp!! AHHH its crazy! this week is gonna be a hard one. ah..Lord i need YOUR strength.

and there's another prefects camp. this time 8 of us are leading. i'm one of them. OHOHOHHOh!
i have an anncouncement:
I'm part of the Ex-co of the prefectorial board.
but i dunno whether to say good or bad act. more responsibilities lor. had interview with P,VP,2VP, and others. it was scary, but anyway i won't go too much into detail with that. yay. i'm in charge of welfare. so if any students get scolding from practically any of the other prefects, i'll do the comforting :) and be mr nice guy. unless otherwise severely provoked. lor. just haven't show my true colours yet. hehe. really! i have one lor! lol

ok i'm done ranting! at least i have the time to do this! one more week of school to go.

~To God be the glory. Let it Out!~

Till the 9th

2007-08-09T23:33:00.000+08:00

9th august. yup. NDP. haha. had a great time watching the parade on TV earlier with folks and frens. and im watching troy now..it sucks :( all the good ppl die! if i go on any furthur i'm gonna cry lol. NOO. okok

gee. forgot i posted alr. will come post soon again I hope.

P.S: Prayer metting was GOOOOOOD. 2 hours really felt like 10mins. bottomline: come for prayer meeting :)

Music+Jesus=Jesusful Music

2007-08-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

whee. long time no post. i'm kinda busy...and yet i can't do anything right now. anyway... sch's ben pretty slack lately i guess. i topped the class for chem with 63% gosh, 2gether with some else i think. boo. i mean yay. OK thats so off topic!

anyway, SOW was last Sunday....we had a great time learning basics in songwriting by PDa, worship team exclusive!!! YAY! so then we were paired..and got grouped with JO and GERALD. our group took the longest, but it was worthwhile!!! we manage to do a 64% complete song! as in..verse and chorus there alr!! yay!!!
Jo-Vocal/Lyricist
Ted-Vocal/Lyricist
Gerald- Elec Guits
and this trio make a great team.... LET IT OUT!! a song about just..letting your praises to Him OUT! haha. thanks to jo, we came up with the title. in was AWESOME! and groovy too! WHEE! which reminds me, i need to ask her for the lyrics. lol. the other groups were awesome too! Mike's cranky and retarted's Care&Connect. lol. Dee's and Jon's was really heart melting. wa....

anyway...YAY! church side prob settled then. haha. guess wad. i still have sch. Destiny Award's is hosting thier first event for songwriting in sch's. and right now, i have a DJ and Jerald entering in! yay! hoping Keith Wong is up next :) and maybe Wilson. things has been going well for them. Got arrowed by Ms Gan to coordinate the songs and stuff. And how am i suppose to create a out-pf-the-range-of-F-Key chord progression? and somemore make it...exotic. lol. Lets see, according to my lousy incapablities of music theory (hint to abraham), i can most prob play around with the minors and turn them to major7s. an augmented might go nice on the F. perhaps a diminish....gosh its hard i tell u. stupid Bb out of nowhere :( argh. DJ, you better treat my lunch one of these days...

and along came Jerald, who stll btw owes me his song. So i roped myself in a tight situation. I've gotta help my 2 buddies..and i still have MY song to write. sheez. so much distrations. but by faith i'll get it done!! and 2mr is ND celebrations in sch! i'll prob spend my time finalizing their songs and get down to work.

i have no idea why am i blogging right now when i should be transcibing DJ's song and making my exotic progression. oh i remembered. before i could do that, my parents are like...DOWNSTAIRS. ok. so i have time to kill. oh well.

Lord help me help them, to open their hearts to the gift of songwriting in them, thru the work I'm about to do. Honour theur hearts and efforts that their songs will touch lives....everywhere.

Operation Going Jesusful

2007-07-29T22:59:00.000+08:00

whee! today is sunday! serve in green today haha. i think although as a team theres lots to improve, i think God did a wonderful thing for me today! manage to flow with worship and created space in my playing. yay! thank you God and Marvy :) and jas choe for the encouragement!

and DEE and BC for the really really nice bear! will post the pic soon :)

anyway...ok. God has granted me 2 wonderful opportunites to give Him glory! Sch (outside or actually) and church are both conducting songwriting competitions! firstly...i personally feel that the songs should come natuarally....a competition might just turn ppl off since they have to COMPETE with others. bleh. don;t like the idea. shoul be songwriting SHARING or smt like tt lol.

its operation going jesuful time. time for me to let God stretch my creativity, sincerity and my worship..fulity? lol. i;m seriously stepping into uncharted territories...and i have a 17 and 27 days respective deadline to meet! oh dear...Lord teach me how to glorify you though words!

anyhow, my main purpose to enter both (if by grace i can), won't be to expect the greatest, but to let God use it the way He wants it. not for me, but all glory to Him. there. i've said my objective. its no competition for me but more of a continuation of what i started.

oh well, its gonna be a jesuful 26 days! haha! i shall first concentrate on my common test 2 thats starting like 2mr!!! gosh. oh well. thank God for mums who have 76v batteries for calculators who's solar panel doesn;t work heh.

Great Bundles of Joy!!!

2007-07-27T21:48:00.000+08:00

YAY!!

ok like i promised:
here are the people who have blessed me with physical gifts!! I still wish to thank those didn't but still did smt for me cause i am grateful for that :) gosh i'm still in my BD mood heh.

presenting *drum rolls* the goods!
actually these are the starters

>> my present from taupok!

>>ta da! a nice open wound...it still hasn't heal yet btw, at the time of this post
(a bit blur, bur its red and it hurts! :(

grrr.....thanks for the "present" guys.

>>> What Abraham and I made. Bird S*** Juice.
BS + 2O -> BSO
heh. what a stupid chem equation

ok! now for the real thing.

>>>A really fantastic card from Delise. ITS ARTISTIC AND NICE. i can't deny it :)

>>> From Sis Kim! A lovely teddy bear LED!

>>> The cute bear is from Hannah
>>> The lil penguin is from Chloe

>> A Cool Card from pastor Darrick!!! it was addressed to talenTED! So touched....

>>> An extra-ordinary letter from Huirou
>>> A card that ask me a question! from Brian Chan

>>> 2 purposeful cards from anDreww. nice "TED"

>>> A Super cool present from CHS's Youth Min, Point.Com
Sus is really innovative! its a superduper long sign that says
"Happy Birthday Ted" inside.

>>> 3 CDs! Israel from Mikey
A card and Hillsongs from Mark Tan
Sonic Edge from Abraham

>>> The signature type of box from my folks!
Too many gifts inside le! haha!

>>> Prob one of the most memoriable gift!
A combined present from Derek, Sheps Eugene+Danny+Chet, Huirou and Nathan
Came in a "guess who" boc. super funny.
A sign of unbreakable frienship :)

>>> and we have the last but not least.
my unforgettable letters from both my shepherds!
Its sooo touching :'(
spot the error!

This is just in! if u manage to read this far, then haha. i;ve a got a secret:
I have a BABY!!!!!!!

erm..when my mum's keyboard and my house organ married, er, their offspring is MINE! haha! yay! i can call it my own!!!!

>> sneak preview

I've decided to name her: ELEGANCE
she's just born and she already weighs 21.2kg!!

~The greatest Gift i received
came from God above
Jesus Christ my Saviour
I thank You for Your Love.~

Celebrations!!!!!

2007-07-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

22 July! A very special day (for me)

haha. this ones gonna be long i think. well, on a nice sunday morn! haha. parents surprised me with a small i--don't-have-to-eat cake! yay! took pics and off we went to church! was the 1st there as always. then the worship team came in, then chloe started to sing like nobody's business a BD song lolx. soon everyone knew about it. gosh, so much for low profile. then walked in to fuel, hannah was the first to wish me out loud. lol. during fuel we played some game, then sis cherie asked me to lead. i don't even know what to do!!! oh well. i make a ppoor leader for now :( and all went well! then i went hans with huirou and bought m&m for Mo. then appeared shep and sheppy with me present!!! ah...am so touched. thanks! a combined present from them, huirou, nathan and derek. at least thats what i can remember. chloe and hannah gave me smt too! :) then went in for service. sis cherie suddenly shouted out of no way a "happy BD". lol.

service was great, encounterin the Holy Spirit was jesusful. its time to rely and be sensitive to God the Holy Spirit. a Great Friend. yeah. then hoho. the main event. i didnt like. after service, i tried my best to run. but reuben caught me up. then if you guess, got taupok. 3 times in a row!! NOOOOO!!!!! i always manage to escape! not today!! even my own sheps betrayed me! here are the responsible few: reuben,ivan,justin,eugene,chet,danny. GRRRR. those 6 are like record breakers. 1st round was so improper! and it hurts!! the feeling of being pinned down helplesss. its agonizing. 2nd time was vertical tp thanks to bro ZC. grr!!!. and finally. this one was intersting. cell prayed for me with sheps. a long one. lol. so touched. oh well, and THEN the tp. grr. 3 times in a row. a painful BD i won't forget haha.

yup got presents along the way from dee (I LOVE THE CARD LA PLs), huirou, BC etc. and wishes. hand around with them for like an hour plus before i had to leave for combined jam. we really went high lol.

combined jam was crazy too! i couldn't stop laughing all the way. i seriously thot it was that crazy. then i realise it was gel. dots. well, it IS my first time. then they all sang the BD song. gosh, word spreads fast. had fun! learned about bad dynamics and flowing. :) it was good. i did the slide with chloe again haha!!!. then the unexpected happen. just before leaving, PDa announced that my folks broght cake down and drinks etc to celebrate. gosh. i felt weird at that time. haha. too shocked alr. so yeah, had PROPER celebration with the worship team. haha. but was really surprised throughout haha. TOO surprised.

then had to leave abruptly coz had to watch transformers with derek!! we're like the only 2 in the universe who hasn;t watch lor haha. so sad, went there late. miss the show. not only that, i kena motion sickness. it was terrible. so....went on a tour from PS to City Hall. haha. funfun. crapped and and talked with derek haha! then went to bugis to play arcade. what a great shooter he is! then finally went some retro restaurant for dinner. didn't eat much tho since was unwell :( derek meet folks. folks meet derek. haha before we just talked and crapped and took pics!!! it was SOOO fun haha! then had one more round of cake, this time with a privileged derek. haha. then send him home! came back and opened presents!!!! mum came in with more haha. it was cool! yeah.

even sch ppl wished me. i had so much comments on friendster. i replied every one of them :) yay me haha. went to finally watch transformers with derek! had soo much fun today too!.

well, throughout the whole course of celebration, i realise what thing. How privileged i am to be a chile of God. if i were to thank only 1 person, it'll be God, for bringing me into this world. there have been plenty of time where i feel what in earth am i here for...and reasoing with myself why i shouldn't even be born, this day has made me realise how blessed i am. its really a day i get earthly appreciation. i think God knows my heart too well. thats why i go arounf thanking ppl who remembered my BD. its such a joy to know that ppl appreciates you when all along secretly you don't feel very much like tt.

to all who remembered, gave me smt, and wisshed me: i really really wanna thank everyone who did that. it really means alot to me, every comment, word, gift. i really treasure them :)
thank God for frens like you all (:

oh well, it hasn;t ended yet! i still have a biggie present arriving soon hehe. and i;ve got jap lunch appointment with dear abraham 2mr. and another post specially decicated to the ppl who gave me presents, wished me happy birthday and remembered my BD! haha! i'll do that soon.

~blessed, thank you Lord~

A VERY bad day

2007-07-20T11:07:00.000+08:00

its like...11:16am on a friday morning! and i'm not in school. lol. guess wad, i fell sick *jumps around*. actually i don't think tts a good thing. i had to miss DS period. he sure gonna make noise when i go back to school one. lol. how sad.

and lets see, thursday itself it wasn't good. felt really sick througout. even that english NIE trainee clamied that i'm making a nuisance by just...not paying attention. HELLO!?! how could i went my body not very well! lol. blast, my fault la, nvr tell him i like tt also.

then thigns started to become really bad. puked when i came back. gee, didn't know it was that...irritating. but content was little thankfully. not like the one derek did at PORB. haah. oh well. went to see doc at night and here's my diagnosis:

Diarrhoea (however u spell it)
stomach flu
fever
and saddly potential dengue. argh.

i'm gonna believe that it isn't dengue. i pray that its not. so..ARGH. ok i can;t get scared too soon. gotta praypraypray real hard!!! if anyone sees this pls keep me in prayer too. i'm gonna need it....

thanks.

tralalal

2007-07-15T22:38:00.000+08:00

on this very sunday, ted went to church. he expected smt, and he received something. not only tt, he believes he'll be changed from this jesusful encounter! yay. and then he realised that people doesn't understand the meaning of not spreading secrets around. oh well. ted was....nvm. here is to everyone who sees: nothings gonna happen on the xx of july! its gonna be a normal ***day and nothing special will happen. the keyword here is NORMAL. there.

shoutouts:
keith,danny,huirou,brian. u sickening 4 can't keep secrets!! urgh!!
i miss sis kim :( NTU. i'll try NOT to forget
KEY!!
i owe huirou a letter. reminder to self, if it works
derek rocks!!
remember! NOTHING special! don't bother finding out. i can't trust ppl le heh
i'm serving on the last week of july! anyone coming?
we wish you a merry christmas (total off topic)

This Thursday

2007-07-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

hm. bored. so yup. lets see. erm..sang for morn assembly. i think it was ok, hoped Mrs Huang wouldn;t choose crazy songs again. all went well till amaths. elective class literally when nuts. coz teacher didn't come, they all hid behind walls at the differnt intersections. it was so funny. nearly got fooled to see there everyone dissapearred. haah! in the end she came la. had chocolate after class from teacher...ah...i;m such a good boy haha! then mr yeo's lesson. manage to explain to him the geog part about temprature. haha. physics wants me to ask geog. mrs ang explain (thanks!) and now gotta find out about radiation waves. aiyo, should have just got the 2 of them 2gether haha. chapel was good too! assisted abraham with keys and slides. then i went berserk and started dancing to nearly every song tt was mentioned by him.....backstage of course. it'll be sooo disgraceful.

oh well. i got so much things to do. things here are getting....lonely. even my parents suddenly took leave lots of time alr. they went golfing in jb 2dae. :( without me haha. sometimes, a younger brother would be nice. lol. well, i still have Marvy and my other stringed frens. i still get to have BWE! yay! that is smt i can't forget to do. i think its time a seriously learn the true meaning of friendship. yeah. gee. haha. i guess i shouldn't just find Jesus when i need but coz i want Him! haha.

tt day is almost coming. but. nothing special this year. i guess it'll prob be the most boring one. but i don't mind. i need a break from the outside world. wished everyone would 4get all about it haha! would do me a big favour too! hehe. ok i will be talking nonsense soon, so i better go.

re:Play

2007-07-08T22:57:00.001+08:00

re:play ignYte@PL was really great! sis cherie and fran's bloopers were the ultimate haha! and derek's secret to the puke was revealed!!!! but still really disgusting. lol haha. no offence derek! u did excellent!!!!

anyway. i served my 2nd official time today! Marvellous was great! 2gether did a big help coz song song was in F. my bar chords are attrotious. heh. no my weakness now. i need 2gether. thank God for capos! first time i actually did more than a 2nd guit should do since sis trina asked me to play more. yay. the arrangement was funny today...placed close to front. scary, good thing joan was beside me. can hide behind keys. The sharing was touching too..am proud to have Sis Carol as my adult leader! haha. Thanks Derek for the supportive smile and warmth of yours...and Gid for the warmth to and the crap! very encouraging.

SoW followed after that. had my fun with 1st and 2nd keys. whoohoo. Mikey lead gel. some game where u must make the opposite gender laugh. i made mike, who joined the girls (heh), laugh by simply laughing. lol. me and contagious laugh. then we had our first sectionals..where the individual instruments get 2gether and learn more about the it. like personal traning session. today, no acoustic guitarist. so i'm left with great lil Marvy and 2gether. helped with the vocals since Jas Choe was training the voices. it was cool! like i get to play while 4 ppls sang. what did i learn? i do well with no.s. thanks jas for the exp and encouragement! haha. the B key exploited my weakness in barring chords. shucks. oh well. it was fun doing solo and being Jas's personal "instrument". got to vary with my fingerstyles too. i have much to learn. thanks Marvellous for not breaking strings! everyone said u sounded good, esp when you're trebled up. haha!

fun afternoon! Sis Cherie rocks too! every instrument can also play ahah!!!!. oh btw, huirou and i exchanged letters. sry for spoiling yours! hope its ok. i shall reply u soon :) ok.
when home after SoW and went dinner with parents, the Lincolns and Ho's for Jap dinner. super filling.

oh well. sch starts 2mr! gee. i've been slacking big time. think i gotta re:start my working habits. next week LCE i get too...erm. hm. next weeks LCE! haha. okok. lets seee.

"...we are not going on stage to do a performance, but to worship through our instruments."-Sis Trina. oh so true.

shoutouts:
sry chloe for hurting your leg!
i stilll want choe's autograph. btw, dee is right. its an Am7
mad, i didn't say my keys skills were good. don't through me dim and aug chords pls!
Solo A.Guit! I love u marvellous and 2gether!
i wanna worship lead one day...
derek rocks totally!
blessd birthday keef and Sis Kim!

ok. i shall be a good boy and go to bed....perhaps not heh. here's something i wrote. i can't i wrote it too.

~Faded Memories~

faded memories
its here but left forgotten
its a thing of the past
there's nothing left to be
of the times that were spend
together as a friend
became apart of history
along with my faded memories

gee.hope no one feels like that. ok. byebye

To Live Is Christ

2007-07-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

*drum roll*
presenting... TO LIVE IS CHRIST. remixed version! mp3
to view, simply click the section "psalms".

yup! my 2nd remix! however, as usual, it is drumless.
but yeah, hope its ministering to you. do let me know your feedback!

I will be away for 2 days :( geez

~recorded for HIS glory~

sigh

2007-07-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

its..wednesday! lets see. am bored so decided to post. i;m working on a remix! finally. however recording devies prob has the problem of a lag, disrupting the aligments and position that a wavelength should be at. its irritating. VERY. thats why i;m working on it! should have been up by now. oh well.

quickbites:
a maths test 2mr. best: i nvr bring textbook back. i'm a goner :(
i agree with dee. weighted keys rule. boon's keys are wonderful
i shouldn't wrote some stuff (censored). gotta be VERY careful nextt time
got despired to write a ohmygoshiactuallywrotethat song. hm. pretend u nvr saw this part.
many more recordings to do.
I love Marvellous!
m.j.w owes me 10bucks for putting taking away my shoe
derek is jesusful!
my apologies to the chapel W.P ppl. u have to try to coordinate without me! like i;m tt impt. lol.
ted. a life always changing. lets see. down life's journey. a fog of sorts seeps in. the path is clouded yet again.
abraham! for goodness sake just sing. i didn't overcome podium fright in one day! like u have anyway. i'll be there. :)
4th july. America's independance day. My parents engagement day. lol.

ok. i shall...make myself sleep. ZzZzZz.

Youth Day

2007-07-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

hm.

played out reality bites was fun! got to serve as sidestage crew. kinda last min but, heyhey! i served. i got roped in last min to serve. really sad raymnd and sam couldn't make it :( but Praise God! 60 salvations! lol. if heaven celebrates and rejoices and has a buffet for every person saved....the angels must be growing fat!!!! haha. lol.

Its like..a total miracle. Mum allowed me to stayover at my shepherd (Eugene) house. haha. miracle. we entered the night with a jog. 5km actually doesn't seem that bad. i mean, i'm natuarally not very fit too, perseverance and jogging are just about the best i can do. so, though i obviously was 3/4 dead at about 3K, it seriously did not feel like 5KM! was quite glad that it ended. gosh everyone everyone seems to be so fit. haha. anyway, shep's dad thot i was some..athelete. lol. wait till he see how "atheletic" i really am. me=weak,unfit. its by the grace of God i got a Gold for NAPFA.

Had dinner after tt at 10.30. Gosh! shep's mum's coooking was heavenly! i'll give it 6/5. haha. its fantastic. as usual didn't eat alot. geez. no wonder i;m 43kg. me and my not-good appetite. oh well. Chet crashed in shortly too! haha. things were going to get crazy.

Spend the night away doing crazy stuff like bed fight and erm, watching them dancing. haha! its super crazy. i went mad. really mad. i like was really messed up, HEHEHEHEEH. ok stupid simulation. but yeah. it was just plain crazy. i think coz chet's around!!!! haha. sorry if i hit you 2 too hard :$

slept and next morn woke up nearly suffocating under pillow. lol, don't ask me how it got on top of my head. lazed for a while. his acoustic piano is like.....SO AWESOME. i wish i had one of those! Then we went pool at meridian. bumped into Justin, Ken, Yun Hou and Chon Ting there. lol it took them a while to recognized me. what crazy expression they had too. like i committed some sin going to tt kind of place. gosh. derek joined in a while haha. i won most of the pool games....becoz they lost. i mean, seriously! no kidding! i didn't really want to win, and it wasn;t fair. coz they knock wrong ball in wrong goal etc. so. oh well. beginners's luck? lol.

left after that for 2 tuitions straight and back home. ok. now. the real thing. did i enjoy myself? OF COURSE! haha. thanks shep and dad and mum and sheppy and my dad and my mum and GOD for the stayover!! haha what a great day

However..."2 is a couple, 3 is a crowd". i can;t kid myself. hm. Honestly, i don't do well in crowds. things always happen. why? why does emotions that i don't want to have always after me...in crowds? i don't understand. everything went well. i mean. it was great! what went wrong....? why do i always feel like that? WHY!? I know. i know this earth is not my home. i can;t find true happiness and joy with the things of thise earth, let alone people. but, why!? why am i going thru this cycle!? When i thought i was over it, you came back again. when i decided to pick myself up and walk again, you were there again. when i finished the epilouge, u started the prologue. how many times before you stop? how many times before it stops? HOW MANY!! Jesus help me...please..i had enough

pls, don't this to me. i;ve let go. don't come back.....ever.

"Jesus. Only You know what i'm going through.
In a world where no one hears my cries
yet you found me when i tried to hide.
i humbly come. and lay my life.
my hopes my doubts my all.
before the Lord of infinite love
I will runaway no more."

no more Lord. no more....

Life Conference 2007

2007-07-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

LIFE Conference. The Encounter

"Life begins here at Trinity!" A phrase that went round during the rallly of the awesome event. The anitcipitation would have killed me (hey i survived. lol)
Life Conference last year was like uber great! This year promises to be even better...and it was! The committee did great planning and i think they really did a wonderful job. 3 cheers for
Pst Kenny and team! Seems like a conference i though it was great and awesome. heh. God had other plans for me....

Before the beginning Day -1.
I got my first surprise from God. It was delievered in the form of an email. it went: ...those who are interested to serve in the choir, pls let me know ASAP. Sis Trina. whoa. i had..a lot thinking needed to be done.
I had a poll with huirou on ppl who support and do not support. guess u would have known. 5 nail, in favour of serving. (Shep, Sheppy, M.J, Huirou, Danny). My beloved shep actually bothered to walk me down....
to the oven. OMGosh. guess some misunderstanding there! All i wanted was just that...they didn't mind if i would to serve. I too wanted to serve. thats all. who knows. i nearly became mutton stew. phew.
Jas Choe then shocked me @ Believers when i was asked to be on strings on2nd day of conference. i like...screamed. think the whole lvl heard me lolx. yay?

Stepped in Trinity@Adam, after like super long. wow. a breakthru. Went to Audi for rehearsal with the choir. the most sickinening part arrives. So many ppl! haha! Creative Min is BIG! So whats sickening? this:
1a) Jasming Por and Theodore Koh. only ppl from ignyte
b) Ignyte@PL ONLY. no adam folks. where did they all go!?
c) Was the only youth there :( MALE youth. gosh.
d) No PL ppl! basically NO YOUTHS!!!!!

2) the youngest of all is DEFINETELY an "O" level cert holder. prob 18++. i just set a new record of underage 14
3) gee. officially labled "kid singer". grr... -.-''
4) The guys were..harmonizes!!! SO COOl! thank God i practised for tt gift :)
5) They made such a fuss over my vocal and finally concluded i was tenor and allowed me to harmonize too.

THE CM PPL ROCK!!! and our youths!? lol. its plain sabo

Day 1!
A perfect morning...to be late. Couldn't sleep last night! just couldn't! So when for the youth track! see? good plannin. a track for youths. woots. had worship, and Pst Dowdy started the conference by preaching to us
about leadership and character. it was inspiring. 15 min break! then round 2 was Rev Tim Hall, guest speaker for the conference. it was..fantastic. about Samson! (see i paid attention KEITH YONG). it was the
woong-woong indepth study of Samson, and it changed my perspective towards that story. Of how God uses "rotten" ppl like us to do great things for His Glory. Lunch! went with Drew, ZhiHe and Jerome to
wadsthatplace to eat chicken!!! as usual, my stomach had its doors closed for physical food. so ate like, 2 wings, 1 drumstick and bandung. lol bumped into Jo,Dee and Esther. lol. then went back!

Round 2 was the workshop by Pst Dom. About making right choices. It benefitted me greatly as i think i'm kinda struggling in that area. oh well. split into groups to do case study. Hannah and i went crazy. Gid was
needless to say, high. He improvised his presentation with crap. lol. the rest were great too! can't remember all of their names, but was glad to be with them. Was blur when group called to be presented. was like
"huh???" oh! oh!" and Pst Darrick went "Yes, thats your group Theodore." gosh. Excellent workshop.

For dinner, manage to catcj up with shep and gang to go for dinner. i4got to tap ezlink in bus! driver noticed. so embarrasing. 5th time alr!! Went to singpost for dinner. we took a vote. then came, "who wants to
fast!?" 2 hands went up. haha. So in the shep and i went to...erm..wadsthatplace to fast and to read God's Word. He prepared for his encounter, i prepared for mine. and wow...he prayed for me...and for the both us.
was really really touched. even offered to go back with me coz i was late alr...but hey, i'm not so mean, so manage to get him to spend the rest of the time with the gang. got walked to the bus-stop and back to church.
thanks so much shep!

Night Revival meeting!! woots. Got formally dressed...in the car. lol. bad timing also. everyone saw me. i had countless ppl coming up to me and questioning my formal appearence. lol. wouldn't want to be in the
limlight! not then! Pst Peter briefed and prayed for us one more time before we took the stage. the moment! so many disbeliefed faces and i walked. i thinking they spotted some guy who was "shorter than the rest"
-quoted from Momo. It was like GREAT fun. The "rocky mountain" was the best i guess! turn around turn around turn around. God is here was just so touching. did feel God's presence soooo strongly. The echo
we did was heavenly...wow. Praise God!

Sat down there and yeah...Pst David Dowry, another guest speaker preached about crossing to the other side. we the choir ppl were really high that night. haha. anyway, God visited! ppl got touched, slained and had
encounters! God is amazing. yup. after that the same few countless ppl went from questioning to disbelief. erm..lets just say they...erm..fill in the blanks

Day 2!
Another perfect morning...to come early! am serving on strings today! heehee. Sis Fran rocks! think she sensed i was nervous. So did shep. so Shep came with encouragement and Sis Fran came with a prayer. Wow.
I'm really blessed. trying new things on stage for prac will result in being asked to do it for the real one. lol. since had no bass, instinctively, i went with the A G# C# bass intro for take it all and...there you go. but
they cancelled it in the end. phew. Playing with PGC was fun too! haha. was getting the flow of free worship...and numbers. jas Choe is ownage....she does numbers while playing. i want her autograph!! oops.
Pst David Doery preachedabout sort of like the same thing as the night before. After the session, i jas choe came with encouragement too! apparently i passed my numbers and free worship for that day. think gpt the cchords right. lol.
thanks ppl!!!!

So ppl to thank as of this point: CM ppl. Sis Trina. Sis Jas Por. Shep. Sheppy. Mo. Derek. Sis Fran. Andre. Jas Choe. PDa. PGC and more if you encouragement me in one way or another. was greatly blessed. thanks!!!!

Had Pst Dom to preach after break. adding on to what Pst Dave had preached. then lunch came! went to sing post again. got forced to eat lunch by shep (how did he know i didn't eat alot!?). lol. then went back
to LT1. There Chloe, Jo, Andre, Jas Choe and Pst Gary was jamming. So haha. i stepped up and...Chloe and I became keyboard partners! She's Key. I'm bored...i mean Board. and 2gether, we're keyboard!! haha
what we do is everytime a glissando takes place, she'll stop and i'll slide haha. it was uber fun!! The stage ppl were laughing haha!!! it was sooo funny. ah well. Then came the workshop. Money,sex,power by Senior Pastor.
Didn't know some stuff so i had to ask around lol. So happen PDa and i had a...idunno. Dunno what happen..HE FELL ON ME!! got taupoked :'( nooo..... my back hit the edge of the steps so...imagine with me the pain
mwahaha :$.
then had dinner@hans. or at least i watched ppl eat. then went around the complex and i went to changed. this time Jas Por not singing. she lost her voice! so..
okay lor. soloist. gee.

It was another great night!! SO many ppl got slained and had an encounter with God. its just so amazing to see how God works. I myself not only had a spritual encounter, i think i've enhanced my own physical
body too! its just so awesome. wish could do it again!!! haaha. oh well theres that!

The carnival came the next day. what was fun? BOUNCY CASTLE with huirou and gid!! gosh!!! the 5 year old attraction was sooooo fun! bought 4 wadevers from shep's dad. and haha. i missed the dunk at PDa!!
although Derick got it, yay. and PDa made me the culprit. thankfully got shep;s protection heeh. must always know where to take cover from haha.

ok! i;ve like written so much, and its kind...complied already. oh well. shall end here. yay!

The Worship Begins

2007-06-30T01:30:00.000+08:00

"Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth." - John 4:23-24

Hi everyone! ok. i'm finally back. those who were wondering what happened erm...lets just say i got a little careless and lost my password to my previous account! so have to make a new one lor. yeah, new change to the link too. sorry to those who took the trouble to relink me but appreciate it :)

Well, hihi. welcome here. as you can see its...about complete but can be improved. like always. everything is the same (if u sa my previous blog) except this time there's an extra section dedicated to God and for godly-song lovers. Pure godly music. Don't worry. its either a backyard remix or God-inspired recordings. So it should be legal la. Hope u enjoy that section. plenty more remixes will come soon!

Credit goes to:
God. Needless to say
Clarence. For sleepless nights on the new skin. couldn't have been thanked more.
you? for coming haha.

ok. will start posting soon. :)